everything juz seems so wrong.. the most upset, bad things juz comes all together.. and it doesnt juz stop, but it adds on.. Deep in my heart, it hurts much more; hurts like nobody's business.. when i saw that entry..And all i could do is just keep everything to myself.. I guess i am being EXTREMELY over-sensitive( which i should not at all); think its just a natural feeling.. esp if its towards true love.. above all, the feeling of being jealous is terrible, but i know i got no right to.. but i have no freaking idea how to describe it and why i am feeling this way; but yea.. its like shit..
I guess its time to let go.. and not only let go.. but let go totally.. There would never be moments like those in the past anymore.. I know it would be difficult for you to be there for me.. esp during this tough times..
every single piece i do, every word i said, how much i think of you will never ever change ur mind.. i'll never be the one..i just hate myself becoz i cant stop myself from thinking and missing the someone..-you- sometimes..in life, everyone juz sees things in a different way.. and i got to accept it and face reality.. but i think i should juz try to stop all the writings; all the thinking..
i just hope that when the the future comes along, i'll be able to reflect on the past and forget all about it..but not for now, at this very moment..
Like Wad you said; we will wait for the future.. and if God allows us to be together.. then tt would be the day..
-our friendship will forever stay close to my heart-
